Tuesday, July 10, 2012

My Need To Clarify

In reading over my last post I noticed a couple of areas that I missed making my point on and I didn't want anyone to misunderstand what I was trying to say. Damned grief...I often lose my train of thought and find it difficult to express myself clearly sometimes. Please bear with me.

Paragraph of concern with bold lettering clarification:

"It's been a painful year. I often think of a dear friend who lost her husband last summer and what she has gone through this last year. We talk and have lunch and she makes a point of doing something different than what would have been done in years past. I like that idea and it's working for her. My problem is that Craig is still alive and I want to spend and cherish every second of every remaining holiday with him and so many times when I attend functions it is more of a grieving process for me. I can't help but think how much Craig would love this. He's still alive and I still feel guilt when I go anywhere without him. I guess they call it survivors guilt."
Thank you for your understanding. 
One of my very most treasured pictures of us.
He loves me. I love him.
Happy.
Taken at Tommy Bahama's in Wailea on Maui.
Craig's "did he really just do that?" for the day:
Craig and I and our new and beloved friends, the Snyder family had a small dinner celebration Monday evening. Kjersten ran out and got us all Herfy's burgers and milkshakes for the boys. During our dinner I stopped feeding Craig for a few moments to chat with the Snyder's. I am always watching Craig when I'm not watching Craig. It's just second nature anymore. As we were all talking, out of the corner of my eye I saw Craig reaching for something. When I turned to see I was astounded. Craig was reaching for his milkshake. I didn't interrupt him, I just watched, we all watched with our mouths agape as Craig took his milkshake off of the table and put the straw in his mouth BY HIMSELF and drank his shake. During dinner he did this twice. We all just looked at each other amazed. 
He is also getting much stronger. When his caregivers were getting him to walk today he walked almost all the way around the building without having to rest! 

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